Being honest, it is early, super early. I woke up and felt pure super duper.
The super duper makes sense. I listened to what I needed to listen to, made the necessary changes, at least understood the necessary changes required, and, most importantly, am already doing what is necessary to remove the stress from my life. Integration, it is all it is, listening and applying.
We bring in a whole bunch of stuff here, whatever this topic ends up being, all of the stuff we have learnt, particularly around removing discrimination, and the application of it to our lives beyond just the medicine world. We’ll bring in all the other words we are learning too, like integration, saturated fats, eccentric contractions, free conversation, safe spaces, happy faces. Basically, a random conversation about random stuff that won’t be random in the end, will all make sense.
As we move onwards in part two, and the closer we get to part three of the Groundskeeper drugs in the space will become less and less, the intention to have only the bare minimum to present in part three. Part three my focus will not be on medicine, not at all!
I keep saying we do not need drugs, we do not, they simply speed up the healing process. It’s done for me, this part, reached the endpoint of medicine, know yourself, accept yourself. Now, I integrate my world as a world without them, take you on that journey a little with me, teach all the same stuff in a different way.
Knowing that you do not know
Topic floating around in my head, where does it go, where does it go, where does it go? Here or in the Way, here is better I reckon, maybe, we will see.
Look, honestly, not trying to rock my own socks or anything, telling the truth nothing else, am bloody good in the sack. The evidence is beyond doubt clear. Have almost no complaints from anyone in this regard, fucking good! Get it! Pun intended.
Talking about socks, actually started wearing the exercise ones for exercise, comfortable on the feet too!
The reason, really super simple reason I am good at this thing is because I know beyond any doubt of doubt that I have absolutely zero idea what I am doing. Literally no idea, none at all. More importantly am more than content to admit it, clearly.
All I do is listen to you, nothing else. Start fumbling and bungling about, give shit a go and see what happens. In the process I pay complete attention to the environment we have created together.
Hear your noises, smell your smells, pay attention to the changes in your body, the goo flowing from your gash, the relaxing of your rectum, all that good stuff.
Hearing, listening, is all I need, you need, we all need to be good at this thing.
There have been a few times I went in and thought, yeah, I am going to slam you into next week, I didn’t. I was shit. Cindie top of that list.
Probably one of the, if not the root I most looked forward to in my life. Phenomenal body, a little bit older, was near impossible to stop my penis doing penis things when she wore some of the outfits she did to work. Beach volleyballer, do I really need to say more?
Went on a couple of dates, had her back to my place and smashed her brains out.
No, I did not, full excitement and entered her like a rat on a hot tin roof, just wham! It is not the way to good sex. Not at all. In fact the way I entered her would have been painful, nothing like the hot romantic steamy was hoping for. The sex was alright but I fucked it completely, and she didn’t want a fucking thing to do with me after.
Apologised to her a while after, she accepted, was really happy I reflected, took responsibility and voiced it. Thank you Fred, thank you for looking at yourself, is very uncommon in your type. My type, men.
Listening is imperative to good sex, not going into thinking this and that, simply letting it be what it is. I learn, we learn eachother, and together make the thing as awesome as it has always been.
Clearly too, I learn from every experience, never ever entered a woman like that again until she, and I, were both ready for it, when it was not an intention at all.
It can be done this way, absolutely, but one has to know their partner, know them very very well. Know when the body is ready for the activity to be completely animal, then and only then is it great.
But, even with Sarah who I entered at least three times a week (in our least active periods, period itself never stopped us!) for over seven years, we only went at it like this a small percentage of the time. It’s not the general way to great sex.
Listening starts with knowing you don’t know, learning together to know, all it takes.