Heaven, we have this wrong, again whatever word one uses for it.
Chasing something that does not exist in this existence. Yeah, it may exist in the next, but not this one, not that one anyway. Clearly referring to the Christian version of Heaven. The other version of heaven is the one we are going to explore together.
Heaven, this one, without a capital h is everything it means to be a human being, to exist in this existence. The shell, frame, machine, body gives everything a person could wish for and more. It feels, oh, it feels, the shit that humans feel, the most phenomenally beautiful of all beautiful things.
Everything, the pinnacle of pain to the extremes of ecstasy, it feels it so ridiculously perfectly.
The pain I talk about, the one that comes with the absolute difficuly in my life, it is what it is to be human. Necessary. Mostly the pain is gone now but came back and then some a few days ago when the news shorts stated the US had bombed Iran. Do not know if it is true, looked no further.
Like, if this does not break your heart in the worst of worst ways, bring the pain of all pains to your being then, like, fucking hell mates, what is wrong with you? Yeah, was obviously in regards to Iran and Israel, which also, far out brussel sprout. It hurts so much knowing what is happening to people, that people are doing it. There are no words for how much war bullshit destroys my being.
Again, how does it not break your being as it does mine? Seriously? How does it not? What is wrong with you?
The difference here, my pain versus yours is what we need to explore, and will thoroughly. You take yours with you and hold onto it, the better word to describe the state of being is suffering. My pain stays where it is, gets expressed, done, can move on, it’s just pain. Pain never comes into another moment unless it has a purpose relative to the moment. Fear, grief, suffering, returns to my being when war is one of those moments.
Heaven, most of the stuff we talk about will be the beautiful, sometimes it won’t be. My work background, and generally supporting people who need support, raises a lot of issues that need to be opened up. The issues are important in this space as they are the driving force behind feeling the truth of the human body, the perfection in it, the heaven which is stepping on this earth 2.5 million times per year.
Or, alternatively, the hell on earth, most people’s lives currently. Understanding the difference between pain and suffering will help you to also understand the healing technique opened up in part one. The two go hand in hand, to understand suffering needs to be felt as pain and then it releases you, lets go, is key to our time together here.
Hope
To be honest, am not sure there is a lazier trait in the human species than hope, well for those who exist in the western and privilege environments.
Hope gets nobody anywhere except sitting on the couch wailing, whining, bitching and moaning for things to change.
Anja tells me, belief is important, Fred, it gives people hope, people need hope. My eyes rolled, another seeker believing in this rubbish, the latest of a long list echoing the ridiculously harmful lazy statement.
One, we have talked about belief, it is the most nothing of nothing approaches to life, the ultimate barrier to freedom. An ultimate barrier which becomes more ultimate when hope comes into the situation. A barrier which can barely be approached through conversation due to people’s attachment to the subject, the dominance of ego.
Think about it, where has hope taken anyone? Really, think about it, where has it taken them?
Nowhere, nowhere at all with the exception of a life of hell.
To reach heaven on earth action is required, freedom requires work, it needs proactivity. Work, action, proactivity do not exist in belief, do not exist in hope. They do not exist in Anja’s environment, the medicine world (traditional especially) and definitely are not present in any seeking space.
Freedom and a better life must be worked for.
Was it hope that motivated McRoberts to walk with his family from the hells in South Sudan to a refugee camp and eventually onto Australia? Is it hope that drives people to cross oceans on the most unsafe vessels, knowing they may have to contend with disgusting border forces representing disgusting people, the Australian government? Is it hope that forces hoards of people to leave their homelands that are dominated by war, gang fighting, genocide?
No, what rubbish. Unless you call hope escaping from terrible and moving towards other terrible. It is not hope at all, is people knowing the conditions they exist in are the most horrible of horrible and the horrible cannot be as such in other places.
Action rather than hope towards a better life motivates women to carry children on their shoulders for months towards better waters, safe drinking waters. Action drives men to uproot their entire families, cross deserts, mountains, waters and the skies for someplace their children can roam freely from the guns, rape, abduction. The abundance of food on other shores is the desire behind the actions of so so many in this world.
Hope, no, hope creates an atmosphere where people sit still, pray, beg and plead for something better without any better ever coming, an environment where they do nothing at all and wonder why shit is not improving. In fact, only the worse accumulates from this action of absolutely non-action.
Hope is the medicine and freedom seeker space in totality too. Bunches of people coming together with a common interest, a common ego, where one another solely feed each other’s egos never getting anywhere. Only replacing old words with new words, more fancy words, thinking those words make them better when they are the same as the old words.
Challenge these people and they cannot handle it, they remove the querier form the community. Anja’s community is the perfect example, her life is not better than before, none of the lives of the people in her community are. Put any of them in an environment where belief is queried constantly, or stick them on their own without any access to technology, loved ones, other people at all and they will fall apart in the worst of worst ways.
Fall apart, it is what they need, what you need, break through all your rubbish belief, ego identification, attachment to the scene.
Heaven on earth, heaven in this body, requires falling apart in absolution. Breaking yourself down to the bitter origins of nothing, aloneness, pure loneliness then build yourself and your life back to what you want it to be.
Heaven requires work, hard hard work, action! Pathetic hope is not action, it is the hell of all hells, the same one as a life of belief, faith.