To know when you know is a really damn easy thing, to know when you do not know is equally as easy. Well, equally as easy when you are not identified to ego.
You know you do not know when you say I believe, I think, I guess, my opinion is. You know you know when you just say, do not even need to say I know, just say, you know. When I say you do not know, it means you have absolutely no fucking idea what you are talking about but you force your words onto others like it is something, you really are the scum of the world.
There are steps along the way, waiting for a miracle rather than doing the work is the pinnacle of cowardice. It, and, of course forcing yourself on your children, those around you, reacting, fucking physical violence. All, especially the last one, absolute cowardice.
Steps along the way, feeling your body, being with your shit leads to tangible noticeable outcomes; outcomes which move one forward instead of backwards. You are all moving backwards. Reading your guidebook explains how to heal, how to be with yourself, open your life.
With the healing method described, which takes courage and actually works, you’ll have to learn courage first, amazing things happen. Time after time opening and freedom occur, a clearness and calmness in the body which is beyond anything you can imagine; joy, happiness, the pinnacle of disgusting things which you call love (but is in absolutely no realm or reality love) are nothing at all compared to this clearness and calmness. Nothing at all.
As you heal, be with yourself, stop reacting to every attachment in the body several things happen.
What is known as kundalini awakening, one. This is a feeling, a beautiful feeling, it is encouragement but it is also a lie, it is not what it is. To be free, to feel as I feel, is absolute universes away from this rubbish. Kundalini awakening is encouragement, nothing else, steps on the path but not what it is, far from it.
The simple steps are more important. Break through the feelings in your body that make you reach out, need this and that, another person, whatever and your head and body become noticeably clearer. There are less thoughts, less repetitive narratives, less confusion.
For you it will take a while to then move into the next step, the thought world in your head becomes more and more quiet, eventually it will be barely a whisper, one has to concentrate to hear thought things now. Then, of course, they completely go.
For me, am at my very last one, absolutely know it beyond doubt. Isolation amongst my own ignorant kind, the mountain of all mountains. Hard is not the word for it, there is no word for the difficulty I have been through.
Fucking hell though mates, it has been a phenomenally beautiful journey, there is no experience like opening up yourself on this earth, or any earth I imagine. Yeah, I say the last 3.5 years have been horrible, they have, I broke through and opened myself completely without any support, completely on my own. The only tool I had to see if I was okay was to walk into towns, order a coffee and talk to the few people around. Sometimes, many times, this was not possible. Like, for example, taking ridiculously high doses of Iboga in a campervan on the top of a mountain in France. Days I was there without seeing another person.
Beautiful though, holy guacamole, far out, just far out. This beauty there are no words to explain for you to understand, absolutely none, they do not exist. It can only be explained and understood when words having any meaning are removed from your system, another step on the path.
I know, absolutely beyond doubt, that when I get through this isolation narrative there will be nothing left in my body, nothing left in my head, I will be nothing at all. A nothing with no somethings, not a single word applies to me, repeat the paragraph above but this time it will permanent.
You feel dumb cunts, absolutely feel, it isn’t the nothing you think of as nothing. That is not nothing at all, it is a whole bunch of somethings, attachments. The way the body feels when you free yourself, mates, just bloody mates.
Hence, the first introduction YouTube video which is very hard to watch of me letting this shit out of my body is ridiculously important for you to understand. I said that in this process, when attachment and all that rubbish is not driving your expression and release there are no words. Watching it you will know this from an audible perspective, however it is much deeper and important than that, there are also no words or thoughts going through my head, not one. It is simply expressing the pain, allowing my body to free itself for whatever comes next.
Sometimes I prompt unintentionally. Earlier in the day (it was about a 10 hour process all up) was listening to one of the many versions of a beautiful song, Island Home. A lyric that goes something along the lines of in a boat on the sea again, and I’m holding that long turtle spear changed in my head to holding my little brother in my arms. Yeah buds, fuck did I cry then, man oh man I cried. To say I miss him, the most beautiful man I will ever know, my family, my friends and my country is an understatement.
But, equally and moreso I don’t miss them at all.
I guess, I don’t know, this happens, but anticipate we continue talking about things to help you read your guidebook here, release your head, release and free yourself.
P.S. No drugs required in this method, only you and a little courage, not a thing else.
The button
YouTube video number 02, the proper introduction have discussed a button that I would press without any hesitation. A button wiping out every last remnant of humanity.
There are some things to know, to understand, attachment the top of the list.
Were this button presented to me it would not be pushed immediately without thought. This is called attachment and is the process that almost every human defaults to. There is no thought or consideration in attachment, it is nothing but selfishness with no clarity, just me, me, me, me, me, me.
No, there are some questions to be asked first;
Is the button ready, does it have everything it needs to work, is it wired and setup correctly. Do not want to be pushing this thing over and over before it works. Question one.
Question two, the most important one, is it going to remove every single human from existence? It’s not going to do something completely ridiculously stupid like leave two numbskulls alive to restart and repeat the rubbish of the past?
Answer yes to both of those and the button would be pressed in the very next breath. No feelings, no anything but aiming to make the world safer. In our current environment of human life it is almost crystal clear the only way to do something about this absolutely fucked in the head species is to remove them all. Safety now returns to the universe, the one that is earth anyway.
So, attachment, there is a war in the head, do I, do I not, should I, should I not, just conflict. Without attachment it is nothing but clarity, clearness in thought processes, calmness when doing what is required, knowing why we are doing what we are doing.