Do you know what the first photo is on the front page? Nope, neither do I.
Have been looking, reverse image searches and a whole bunch of other ways. Returning nothing, likely going to have to go back to the cafe and ask about it.
It is easy to understand why you do not understand medicine, yep, talking to you mister and misses provider here, all of you. Especially every traditional environment everywhere in the Americas, all other continents. We’ll get more into it but the only thing I want to mention about the photo for now is this thing, whatever it is first presented to me in a DMT trip June 2024. Yeah, a year ago now.
Then, I of course saw the exact same thing at the cafe mentioned, a year later. Hence, your confusion, we’ll come back to it another time. First we need to understand the way medicine works and how to listen together, especially you psychedelic medicine junkie.
Dominic, you are included here bud, do the facilitating better than everybody else but you are just another junkie, that is all you are bud, no different to a meth head.
Ayahuasca environments: Kichwa, Shipibo, Kaxinawá, Yaminawa, Sharanawa, Ashaninka, Airo-pai, Baranara, yep good buddies, all nothing but hardcore junkies. Besides how to prepare medicine, sing a few songs, respect the jungle they have nothing to teach. We know this because they live in belief.
I believe, doesn’t matter what follows, exactly the same, the absolute barrier to freedom, is simply another form of discrimination. The above, religion, margarine being worse than butter, all belief.
If belief, faith included, is part of your being and you are shoving drugs in your body you are simply a junkie, nothing else. You do not want equality, freedom, you just want to get high as fuck and think you are better than others because you are swallowing this rubbish instead of the other rubbish, nothing else. JUNKIE!
So, let’s learn how not to be junkies together, starting with preparing ourselves for listening in the medicine world.
Piriformis Syndrome
The human body, a phenomenal phenomenal thing. Started to get a numbness in the big toe and foot a few days ago, was trying to walk in flip flops and the foot would not respond. Bit of a worry, but wasn’t worried at all.
Today, massage time, first time I have really been touched by another person in 3.5 years, phenomenally beautiful. Already can move the big toe and one next to it again, numbness in the foot going away.
Did some research, knew the problem was likely going to be something to do with the muscles in the arse. Also understood the presenting condition is nerve related, most likely impingement, being stuck around a tight muscle.
Piriformis sydrome, clear winner, branches of the tibial nerve being compressed present as per the above.
Now, it should not be called a syndrome at all, gets people’s knickers in a twist, gets them twisted quickly. Should simply say, super tight piriformis muscle, action to fix is untighten.
Running to the doctor for everything, full fear of any tiny little change in the body means you are not ready for medicine, you do not understand the first thing about the machine you exist in.
The backside is made of a bunch of muscles, the three major ones most people know are not the problem here, Gluteus maximus, medius and minimus. Piriformis, she is underneath all of this, it is hard to access but we need to access it in order to relieve the issue, syndrome, mentioned.
Beyond doubt knew it was going to be painful, the massage that is, beyond doubt. It fucking was at times. You know what I did in the most uncomfortable painful times? Yep, breathed, kept the breath slow and calm, the more pain the more I concentrated on breathing.
The worst thing to do is tense up, especially when an elbow is deep in the muscle, you tense and the pain is amplified shitloads. Also, the muscles that tense, the bigger ones mentioned stop the therapist from being able to access the primary muscle causing this very common issue, the tiny little muscle. Hence, healing suddenly becomes unavailable.
Breathing through pain, staying relaxed, is the first step in learning how to surrender.
Surrender, you will hear it heaps and we are going to really open up the topic here, open it up and then some. By the end we will all be expert surrenderers (surrenderers, probably not a word, who cares, make sense).
Physical pain is absolutely nothing compared to what you will experience on your healing journey. In fact a lot of the pain you feel physically at the moment stems from the mental, emotional space. Particularly the chronic (ongoing) issues.
Surrender simply means, shit gets hard, I let it get hard, do not get in the way and try to stop it, do not run from it. Accept I need to go through this to understand me, fix me, surrender to it, surrender to me.
Basic simple steps to learn how to surrender are these things, get a massage, ask for it to be firm, really firm, know you are going to feel pain, accept it, breathe through it. Surrender.
Work yourself up too, practice, a tennis ball is absolutely great. Even if you do not have piriformis sydrome, grab the ball, put it on the ground, your backside on top, and with enough weight to feel solid pressure start moving around on it. It will hurt a lot in some spots for almost everybody, guarantee it. Breathe, keep it calm and consistent, do your best.
Now, you do not need to go full ridiculous pain to start with, begin where you can, just enough pressure to feel the burn and breathe. Learn to accept pain, be okay with it, work your way up to elbows. Breathe, breathe, breathe, calmly and consistently.
You will grimace, whince, make a shitload of weird faces, they are all okay, remember to breathe. Continue remembering and when you can withstand the elbow, well, you are ready to take on the medicine journey.
The medicine healing journey really is this simple folks, really really simple uncomplicated stuff.
If you can breathe through physical pain it will go a long way to be able to breathe through the many variations of pain, fear, presented in your healing journey. Ultimately too, if you can do the above the necessity for medicine is reduced in the process, you’ll learn the technique works to help ease all of the emotional pain you feel in everyday life too.
Hence, my drug use was seven years, solid usage yeah but seven years only. In this time I probably put as much shit in my body as all the tribes above, every medicine provider, and all other junkies stick in their body in 3.5 years, cannabis excluded. They have all gotten nowhere after a decade, decades of use, I have reached everywhere.
Reached everywhere because I simply took the dumb fuckhead shit out of healing. Didn’t try and make it exclusive or think I am some sought of a supreme being because the drugs I went to were different to yours. Alcohol and pharma heads you too included. Also, did not get lost in the theatrics of the experience. I am not, and never ever was a junkie, simply a man desperate for a better life, a safe life, one without constant pain.
So, please, again, stop being junkies, learn to surrender, remove belief, open up your life.
Breathe.